Good thing I left the wristbands home.

"Matthew Silar is leaving the wristband home today. It's time to let go of the past and start looking to God for the future."

That was my status the day of High School Musical callbacks.
LooOOOoooOOoong story VERY short---> Being cast just wasn't going to work with my conflict.

I was bummed. Not gonna lie. I knew God had bigger plans for my Fall but I was still bummed for a day or two. Everybody was so ready and excited for the show, the cast looked great and I really wanted to get to do HSM in CYT... I was bummed I wasn't going to be a part of it.
But I did my best to just focus on the fact that God would have a bigger plan for me.

Then the insanity broke out with HSM! (See post before this)

This evening I found my IMPROVATHON BANDANNA. I did the entire finale without it. (The one I used was Kat's and it was just so we had our color represented) and it reminded me of my Peter Pan wristband (I had two... but one got lost because I let somebody wear one during Narnia. I learned my lesson real quickly. It now stays around my lamp and doesn't leave there unless it's on my wrist. Nobody is ever allowed to wear it now... haha) BUT anyway it reminded me of the wristband and how, at the time I was like "Man! SHOULD HAVE WORN THE WRISTBAND"
So now I have to think... maybe if I did wear the wristband as my comfort... I would have been cast. But by taking the wristband off and looking to God ONLY I WASN'T cast which made way for God to do his MUCH BIGGER PLAN.

I am still in awe. HSM was seriously a LIFE CHANGING experience, maybe not my biggest one, but one none the less.
After the first show somebody asked me how I felt and my good friend told me "You gotta feel good after that!"
Honestly... I didn't know how I felt. I couldn't believe it just happened. I know that sounds cliche' but being put on stage to do a whole show... after 3.5 hours of practice is FRIGHTENING... but it happened. And I feel like I got to learn AND prove something to myself.
As a performer I felt like I was given a new challenge to rise up to. It also meant a lot to me to prove to myself I can do it. I know I've done a lot of shows... and while I'm not (nor will I probably ever be a professional) I have a feeling that even when you are PRO, the struggle with self confidence is still there. I'm not saying I think that I am a terrible performer but I still doubt myself and skills a lot. Learning a role in just under 4 hours really was a stretch and accomplishing it (even though it really wasn't ME who accomplished it) was a good feeling.
As a person it taught me how to enjoy a blessing and still keep my heart in the right place. (I loved getting to play that role but every night I tried to make sure to make Devin and the rest of the cast's health the FOCAL point of my prayers with gratitude for the blessing as a close second)

It feels great getting compliments and getting to tell the story but I can't take the compliments. It was NOT me who did that. It was Anna and Tina's patience while working with me along with God's INCREDIBLE power to just MAKE IT WORK. He set everything up perfectly from being out of class to get the phone call down to blessing me with the chance to do the 2nd Friday- giving my Dad and 2nd mom the opportunity to see the show ALONG with a DVD night!

I love the cast. I loved the encouragement from everybody ESPECIALLY all the younger kids who always tried to give me a high five or a good job. It meant so much to be to be accepted by those guys and I truly feel HONORED to have been a wildcat for that time.

I don't think I'll be able to thank the Lord enough for his amazing plan. I feel almost guilty for doubting his plan for my Fall. He had one of his biggest plans for me so far and I know that they are only going to get bigger and more awesome. I also know that those will take more trust and looking to him for strength. I know it won't be easy but this has been a blessing AND a wake up call and I can't wait to see what else my AMAZING Savior has in store!

WHAT TEAM?
Wildcats... we really are ALL in this TOGETHER!
(Lame? sure... but nobody can deny that that message became abundantly clear!)

Living out that dream (literal not metaphorical) every theatre kid has had.

Show at 9:30am.
Phone call at 8:15am "Jack Scott is sick... they may ask you."
5 min later, phone rings again "You're going on. Get over here"
Arrive at 8:50am.
Check mic, Get a script, write lines and put them on clipboard. Find jacket that fits. Read lines before going onstage all by yourself.
Do the last step 3 more times in Act One.
Run up to light booth til end of intermission
Run back down, do one scene.
Wait til lead is done with song. Tell them you need their shirt as soon as they change.
You change.
You run back up to the light booth and do complicated scene.
Run back down and do last scene.
REPEAT AT 11:45 adding CURTAIN CALL DANCE.

Next day.
Go to school. "Are you on tonight?" "Yes I am"
"Oh so you are Ryan then?" "RYAN! NO WHY WOULD I BE RYAN??"
"Devin may have chicken pox" "WHAAAAAT?!?!??!"
Freak out all through the rest of your classes.
Go home early to learn Jack Scott and peak at Ryan JUST IN CASE.
Get a phone call at 1:30. "What are you doing?"
"Sitting at home"
"Get over here, you're our Ryan this weekend."
Get in car and realize you need gas.
Put in card and make phone call to get Sharpays number.
Transaction is cancelled cuz call took to long.
Repeat previous card step and pump gas.
Answer the phone and get said number.
Pump gas while the wind picks up and DRENCHES you in rain.
Get to Choreographers/AD's house at 2:00
Rehearse til 3:30.
Meet Sharpay at theatre at 4.
Rehearse til 6...6:15 ish.
Run harmonies with vocal director.
Get ready and find pants don't fit.
Get belt to fix pants problem
Go onstage praying you don't mess up.
Do whole show THANK THE LORD.
Breathe.
Realize that you've had nightmares about this.
Praise the LORD!
Cast party... shower... BED
Wake up. REPEAT SHOW 2 MORE DAYS.
All while praying for the sick cast members.

Man, oh man, does God have a crazy plan.

I have extremely talented friends.

I have extremely talented friends.
Working lights for HSM. It's great fun. The show looks great and I thoroughly look forward to getting to watch such a fun show for the next two weeks.
I know like 90% of the cast and am friends with all the leads and most of the ensemble so I may be biased... but I do think the show is going to be a winner.
Cody and Jonathan are both Troy and are nailing it. Same with Rachel and Brittany. Rachel is NAILING her first lead and I think this is definitely Brittany at her best. Don't ask me which cast to see... I'll say go to both.
CLICK HERE FOR SHOW INFO!

Just real quickly.

I'm not going to write much.
Saw Hairspray at the Marriott tonight. I'll post about it soon.

LOADS of school to get done tomorrow so I'm taking a day off from internet (minus e-mail and perhaps texting facebook status)
I'm kinda excited about that part. As hard as they are... there's a freedom I feel from internet breaks/fasts.

Here's hoping I get a LOT done. (Including line memorization!)

-Matt

It's been a week or two.

Life has gotten crazy... but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel
That sounds like I'm dying.
No, no my good man.
I am merely wrapping up this insanity I have called Fall for the past 2.5 months.

Last CRAZY class tomorrow. Then Tuesday brings an out of theatre dress for my Charlie Brown kids who are truly FANTASTIC.

Saw Noises Off this weekend through Greenroom. FANTASTIC show. Nothing bad I could say about it even if I wanted to. Such talent. I proud to learn under such talented and passionate performers.

School's shaping up
My friends are a blessing
and my SAVIOR is incredible.

The times- they are a'changin.

I know I talk about Narnia a lot, but I think it is because that show was a milestone of me growing into an OLDER kid position in CYT.

And now looking at where I am now and where I was then, a lot has changed.

Attitudes, friends, relationships, my faith.

Basically, I think I like the PERSON I have continued to become between now and Narnia, but I sure do miss some of the PEOPLE I surrounded myself with back then.

But as the famous chain e-mail says.
Some people stay for a moment and some a season. (ooh first bold word in my blog)
But regardless of, it's still fun to think back to that. I also think Narnia was a last bit of almost ZERO responsibility. (I mean we always have some, but it seems like you hit 16 and responsibility goes through the roof. I can only imagine 18)

Time for bed. Working from 9-5 and then school all night plus SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE and GLEE are on TV! Gotta love Fox Wednesdays!

Becoming Greenroom UPDATE!

It's down to TWO!

Matthew Silar
and
Kat McKeown

orrrr

Kat McKeown
and
Matthew Silar

Regardless of the order, it's down to me and Kat.
Pressure much?
However, Becoming Greenroom has been an unforgettable experience and I honestly wouldn't trade it for the world regardless of the outcome. Granted, both Kat and I have 2 different opinions of the perfect ending to this amazing experience but we both can agree that the journey has been unreal.

Come Nov 7th and VOTE FOR THE NEWEST MEMBER OF GREENROOM!
(again all none of you who read this...for now...)