Thursday, March 11, 2010

Little Shop of Awesome/I need an attitude adjustment

Little Shop closed tonight after what felt like one of the best performances of my life. I'm so thankful and blessed.
The show was everything I wanted it to be. I gained everything I had hoped I would. Tonight I felt like I was living out my dream role.
I think back to the rehearsal where I was worried about if I would have a voice for shows and I seriously HEARD God say in my head "Do you really think I'd give you all this and just take it away?"
Amazing. just amazing. So thankful.
Here's hoping it's not over. (REMOUNT! REMOUNT! REMOUNT!)

SLASH

You know when I feel most happy? When I'm worshiping (like music) God and when I am performing. Otherwise I realized I am a very stubborn person. I get bored so easily and always want something new the second something starts to feel even a little old. I don't like things to stay the same too long cuz then I get bored and feel trapped (gross teenage angst symptoms) but if things start changing to much I want the world to slow down.
The only thing I don't get sick of is God and performing. I feel like I even get tired of the same people for too long. I realize that's terrible cuz I love my friends and family to death but I'm a person who just likes breaks from people sometimes. I have a few people in my life I love so much but rarely get to see so everytime I do I love it. I just hate the feeling of "expecting" to see somebody cuz you see them all the time.
I don't think I'm making sense.
I think I need an attitude adjustment.

1 comment:

  1. We get tired of you too. Except no, I think that's a vicious lie.

    We all have flaws. I'm incredibly prideful, it seems you struggle with being content. At least we're aware of things like this- I prefer you stubborn over ignorant any day. The nice thing about being aware of how awful we can be is that it opens our eyes to the good we do for the world as well. Because of my pride, I have passion for what I do- and being passionate is my best attribute. You may be stubborn and contrite, but that gives you a light and an energy to never settle for mediocrity- you're determined and adventurous, traits I support very much.

    I hope I don't bore you, because you amaze and inspire me.

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